Tuesday, February 15, 2011

My Wonder Years...(Angela Park ... My Mystery Crush)

I loved this show... and I still love it today... There is something about narrating ones life while looking back at it when your older.. There were alot of episodes that really hit home with me.  This show so many times reminded me of memories from my childhood. I was younger than he was in the 70s so the time frame doesnt really match but there are just so many topics on the show I relate to. All I can say is that the writing on the show in my opinion was excellent. I posted the episode that I watched tonite. An episode where Kevin is away with his family at a lake. Weve all been there.. Trapped with our parents at a place we really didnt want to be but they wanted the family time. All you wanted was to get away.. I can remember picnics like this. Kevin got away and met a girl. Cara. The dilema was she lived where they were camping. You know the issue. Not going to work. Kevin is eventually going to have to leave. Over before it starts. Of course, they hit it off and spend the rest of the time there together. She figures out he has to leave and the show ends. I remember a similar situation happening to me on a family picnic at Angela Park...(My Hazleton friends will remember this well).the moment is almost surreal to me now. I was walking through the park with my cousins. We always had free passes to ride the whole day. I remember they had alot of local high school kids working there. We were around Kevin Arnolds age...(14ish)  While getting ready to go on the bumper cars, I stopped and looked at the girl collecting the tickets. It was like I was hit with a baseball bat. She was gorgeous. I never saw her before. We went to the park just about every single Sunday back then and I never saw her there. I gave her my ticket and went on the ride. I couldnt help but look at her all the while. I left the ride and didnt know what to do. I didnt have the guts to up to her any say anything. She definitely was older than me. Probably a year or two. As I looked at her she would smile and then look away. We left the ride and went back to our picnic area. My family wanted me to stick around and eat lunch and stuff and I wanted NO part of it. I wanted to find her. Finally, my cousins and I went back. I looked for her and nothing. I ran to every place I could think of .. She was gone. I just about gave up when I saw her working another ride. She saw me and again the prettiest smile...A bit later I realized that she had been following us around asking for different places to work. There was also a guy working there who I knew that told me she liked me. I was thrilled. I told my cousins I was going to talk to her.. Get the courage from somewhere. For the next hour or so, I tried but she was so busy I couldnt get a chance. Then my Mom and Dad came calling for us. We had to go back and have dinner and pack up. I tried every excuse I could think of but my parents won out. That was the longest 1/2 hour of my life. I ran back to the park and she was gone. I rode the skyride to try and find her again and nothing. I ran through the whole park looking everywhere. I asked the guy I knew and he didnt know where she went. I was crushed. I sulked back to the table and got ready to leave. I took one last walk to the creek in back of the picnic area. I stood on the bank tossing rocks into the water. I looked to my right and on other side I could swear I saw her. She looked very sad. I wanted to find anyway I could to get there. My Mom came at that exact time and told me we were leaving. Just as I turned to look back, she was gone. I know it was her but I dont think she ever saw me. I begged my Mom to let me look around the park one more time but we had to go.... Its funny I still think about her to this day. We never actually even spoke.. Just alot of shy smiles. I went back a few more weekends after that and never saw her again... I almost swear I saw her once in the hallway of my High School later that fall but if it was she didnt recognize me. Ill never forget that moment or her. No dates, no talking on the phone, no conversation but a moment of my life Ill always remember ... a moment of wonder.....

4 comments:

  1. How much different/easier would life have been if we knew then what we know now? If we'd known that the girls were just as insecure as we were, if we'd known that they probably weren't really out of reach, if we'd understood that they were probably as afraid of us as we were of them.

    I can't say that I regret any of those moments, as I've seen several of those old crushes later in life and many of them became train wrecks. I believe that everything that we've experienced leads us to where we are now, and anything that I might have done differently then might have me on a different path today.

    I like my path today. I like where I am. But like you, sometimes I catch myself... wondering.

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  2. My point exactly... Its really something to sit back and think about these things ... how your life may have changed with just one different moment.. who knows what wouldve happened had i talked to her? Ill never know but it couldve changed my whole path... Thanks Duane..

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  3. I agree with Duane whole heartedly. What makes us who we are today is the paths we went through in life. Never forget the day I saw my middle school crush in the Columbia Mall breast feeding her kid, who does that? Any who, most of these girls are train wrecks like Duane said. Some however look as good as they did back in the day. Another girl I crushed on just sent me a Facebook friend request. Just a couple weeks ago I was looking for her on the FB and here I get a request from her. SHE CHANGED HER FIRST NAME??? First thought, who does that?, just like the breast feeding chick, then I thought, holy shit, wonder what happened in her life that she needed to change her name? Great story Joe!!! The fact you remember the story and can explain it so vividly, she must have been special. The fact you exchanged countless smiles is a battle won all itself. Some people never get smiles, some people grow to be very lonely. At least you have that day for the rest of your life.

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  4. Its funny how I still remember it... Never even met her... but Ill always think about it.... Thanks for the Post!

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